recently i have been inspired by a few blogs i have stumbled upon. while being away, somewhat isolated in rural japan, i have found that exploration of thought has been a large part of my time here. although i am busy with school and the challenges of living abroad i find that often my mind drifts to deep questions i spend little time contemplating while in my comforts at home. actions have always been a very central part of my being and i truly believe the cliche saying that "actions speak louder than words," but how can i here make my actions speak? i have few words to communicate with those around me and little contact with those i can communicate with...its a question i am struggling with every day. i want to encourage and love those around me.

joy is a lesson i am learning. isn't it true when we become proud we are tested? man, am i realizing the truth in those words. a challenge for me this past year has been finding true joy. challenging my faith and trust in the one who can give me true and everlasting joy. joy in ALL circumstances. i am so blessed to have a true rock, a castle not built on the sand but an ever so deep belief in my creator and the belief that all things come together for good. there is a lesson to be learned from my time here, i am here for a reason, to be used and to be challenged, to show love and accept love, to better myself and those around me. life is so surprising.